inkskinned:

inkskinned:

this morning i almost fell off my bed and woke up in the middle of a dream and the first coherent line of thought i could muster was koalas get their medication from pharmarsupials 

who started this going around again what did i do to make you hate me

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"

kohlberg created this whole scheme of moral reasoning
with three levels. when we are little, we take action with
the intent to gain rewards and avoid punishment. when
we grow older, we see rules as black and white, good or bad.
by the time we are thirteen, we are capable of constructing
a “wider picture” where morality exists on a spectrum
of circumstance and understanding.

kohlberg killed himself.

the reward: breathing no longer.
the punishment: the pain it brings your family, your friends,
a stranger on the street.
we want to say “it would only hurt those closest to me”
but humans mourn as a whole, as a group, as one single breathing entity. what is lost to one person
is lost to us all.
we want to know your story.
this is why we hate book burnings.

the black: a grave your best friend reads her poetry at,
standing in ballet flats with the mud sluicing up around her feet,
wondering idly if the grass growing over your plot
is fed by your bones, wondering if the dandelions there
are your way of listening,
knowing that you’re actually dead and you didn’t stick around
long enough to see her succeed, kind of hating you, kind of
jealous, kind of wondering what made you do it
because she’s pretty sure it was her own failure and
trust me when i say this will fuck up
every relationship she will have
from that moment on.
she will never ever be over this.
the demons in your brain might tell you different - that
we all move on, that we make new friends -
but she won’t be the same person. for years, she will be hollow
instead. you won’t be there to stop her
from getting way too drunk, night after night,
you won’t insist she puts down the sixth tequila shot and
she will end up in the hospital, you won’t
be there to sit with her on days where she needs someone so
she’ll just sit there, alone, you won’t be there
to stop her from dating people she knows are bad news
and she’ll do it all just out of want for the distraction from
missing you, just out of the desire to escape
from the six foot hole
you drove inside her.

the white: no one will speak poorly of you
for at least a month. no one decent, at least.
in fact, no one will speak of you at all
because your name will sit like a bitter seed on their tongue.
they will avoid talking about you because that’s what people
do with pain: they dance away from it until the bad nights
where the boxes they shoved their guilt and horror
and utter misery into will tumble down onto their heads and
suffocate them. this sounds great if you’ve been bullied.
good, let them suffer for this.
but the truth is, there are more good people than bad out there
and the good ones will blame themselves
more than the cruel ones ever will.
girls who are used to helping out the hurt little birds of
their classes will find themselves
wondering how they didn’t see you in time,
how it was possible one slipped through their fingers. boys
who just wanted someone to talk to
about how bad it gets will wonder if they should take that final step, too, because if you can’t do it
why should they be able to.
people who are kind
but have been too shy to approach you
will all sit in your classes and stare at your empty seat
until they want to puke.

the full spectrum of morality: don’t kill yourself,
not for anyone else
but because your story hasn’t panned out.
you are still in the exposition.
the greatest novels have the hero go through hell
in order to walk out forged by fire,
heart as strong as steel and a future so bright it burns to look at.
there is always something you are good at. there are people
you could save by sharing where you have been.
grow up to be a psychiatrist,
a teacher, a parent, an artist, a nurse -
make sure this doesn’t happen to kids anymore.
there are poems to write and kites to fly and
so many adventures to be had, so many
impossible moments you can’t even fathom, so many brilliant
tiny miracles that will keep you afloat for just a little bit longer,
just a little bit more

and i know this because i’ve been where you are and
for the last month i’ve been in the bad place,
the utter dark –
but i’ve been able to get out of it
using my teeth and claws and the skills i’ve developed
after a long, long time of doing this and
i’m maybe not perfect but i’m getting stronger.
eventually, this disease
won’t control me anymore.

i hope you’ll be there the day that i’m better
because i want to be there for you, too. we can both celebrate
our getting through.


- I’m sick and tired of breathing.” // r.i.d (via inkskinned)
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4.17.2014: I don’t even hate what you did to me.

4.17.2014: I don’t even hate what you did to me.

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inkskinned:

lojo1815:

I love this.

eyyy man don’t… this is basically saying “if you don’t love your body in a way we like, you don’t love your body”
also because finals are around the corner i will literally do anything to distract myself SO I just did some quick math since there wasn’t any sources on the sheet:
The average cost of breast augmentation is $3,678, not at all close to a year of tuition (at least in america), which is $30,000 for a private school (mine was 56k a year before scholarships thank god for that gpa), and as low as 8,000 for public community colleges. 
disregarding that the implication here is that slimfast and other diet plans are not “loving your body” (despite the fact that the choice to diet might stem from the desire to feel healthy), i don’t know much about the slimfast diet but a "thirty day supply" is $75 from walmart, so roughly (rounded up) about $950 for the year. I could find plane tickets “to europe” (i chose london) from where i live for under that, but it was $783 one-way and one ticket, and since it says “tickets,” plural… once you take someone with you, that’s $1566. And i’m guessing you want to come home once you’re there…. but again, i’m not familiar with slimfast and i don’t know much about planes, so i’ll admit this might be wrong.
for the tanning versus massage, in this particular case, both sides have the potential to be unhealthy, so do your research before you get involved in either. tanning and over-tanning can cause some ill effects, but so can an untrained masseuse (which is pretty rare, i’ll give you that!!). stay safe out there little ones, i love you :)
the “you can get highlights or food” comparison isn’t really fair because if someone was like “you can buy that nice leather jacket for yourself or you can have like a lot of tacos,” i’d be like “): okay i’ll get the tacos.” i also seriously question this, so i … did the math… (i have so much work to do, can you tell?) i’m just working with the lowest number i found in both situations because it obviously depends on where you go. highlights start at $75, whereas on what the USDA calls a “thrifty plan,” (even less spent than their “low cost plan”) each week of groceries is about $38 for young adults living alone. two weeks therefore is actually fairly close to $75, but again, the “thrifty plan” here is what’s driving that number down - and also the fact it’s only groceries for one person.
"uncomfortable shoes" is so ridiculous literally anything can make shoes uncomfortable i have $1 flipflops i bought for taking a shower at camp and they’re like a size too big and awkward to wear. i’m assuming they’re trying to make high heels sound like the devil, so let’s work backwards on this one. gas at $4 a gallon (ouch) and a car that gets 30 miles to the gallon, that’s $160. i literally don’t know what to do for this because, again, anything can make shoes uncomfortable. the most uncomfortable shoes i have ever worn are pointe shoes, $55, but for high heels?? man oh man i found heels for like??? under $20. seriously, basically every department store has them. i don’t particularly like these for myself, but i guess some sizes and colors are for under $5 before shipping. 
idk about you but when a pair of jeans fits just right that shit is better than lift tickets because it does the lifting all day long your butt becomes a booty and you know the difference. ski lift tickets? $85 each.  designer jeans that support your butt like your own personal booty aide squadron? priceless. obviously depends on the designer but i found juicy couture jeans for $53 in like a 5-second search, so.
acrylic nails, on average? around $37. ”an amusement park”? that’s pretty vague but just for laughs, the cost of a single adult ticket for one day to disney world (only one kingdom, no other expenses) is $94.
i really hate this next one because i need a bra man not only is it socially unacceptable for people with breasts to be without one (which is dumb), but i’m just generally uncomfortable without one because of personal reasons. so what if i wanna get one that makes me look like a bombshell instead of a dinky little wireless one that couldn’t hold up a flowerpetal?? but since you’re up in my business about my underwear choices, I’ve actually found several “breast-enhancing” bras at Marshalls for under $5 in the sale rack. renting a canoe ?? $48. ps??? even if i didn’t want to be thrifty and i wanted a pushup bra from a legit place? Aerie has them for under $30.
i know nothing about magazines in general because i think they can often promote the wrong idea about beauty although (again), i haven’t really looked at them recently and could have outdated information. tried to do some research for the sake of science, only found the number $20 for a subscription to vogue, although i am not sure if that’s per magazine or per year. again, i know nothing. if you’re into fashion, be into fashion, man. don’t let someone tell you that’s vain. i only don’t like it because (as far as i’ve been told) it only really represents one type of body, and i think that can be harmful. i am sosososo for fashion though. “raquel where do i get a nice dinner??” well my favorite place is here in NJ, where the average entree is about $25. totally worth that $25, but very pricey nonetheless. 
"another tube of lipstick" yeah because i like to look good in all seasons are you telling me every time i buy something i have to be like "oh ): i could have… called… a friend… with that $1 i spent on the on-sale lipstick from CVS." this is bunk you can long-distance call for free if you use the internet and skype with someone. buy that lipstick and wear it when you videochat with them. they’ll be like “damn you look good where can i get some.”
the way people love their body is different for everyone. stop shaming those who choose to love their body in a way that is conventionally “selfish” (by the way?? believe it or not, there are worse ways people spend money). who fucking cares if they like to spend their money on the stuff they do? that’s why it’s loving yourself. bc i don’t like myself very much so every time i’m like “i have to buy this or i will not have a dress for this event" i spend like 2553 years agonizing over it — and it’s because of things like this that make personal choices seem "selfish" or "vain."
eyy man love your body. buy that lipstick. don’t feel bad for the stuff that’s supposed to be for the stereotype of stuck-up lady. nah man, all this stuff? this stuff doesn’t determine who you are or how much you should love yourself. if you love your body by eating 343234 slices of cake, good (me too). if you love your body by getting “uncomfortable shoes” (more like “excellent soul-crushingly pretty” shoes), good. there!!! is!!! no!!! wrong !!! way!!! to love your body!!! regardless of how you express that!!! regardless of your gender!!!!! regardless of how “selfish” people tell you it is!!!! if you’re a girl and you like fashion!!!! teach me how to wear clothes because i bow to your greatness don’t let anyone tell you that’s a pointless hobby!!!! if you’re a dude and you like lipstick!!! put on that lipstick now you are a dude with great lipstick!!!!! if you’re a person who likes everything on this list do everything on this list and stop!!! feeling!!! bad!!! about it!!!!!
idk man idk finals are a hard time for me what do i know

inkskinned:

lojo1815:

I love this.

eyyy man don’t… this is basically saying “if you don’t love your body in a way we like, you don’t love your body”

also because finals are around the corner i will literally do anything to distract myself SO I just did some quick math since there wasn’t any sources on the sheet:

The average cost of breast augmentation is $3,678, not at all close to a year of tuition (at least in america), which is $30,000 for a private school (mine was 56k a year before scholarships thank god for that gpa), and as low as 8,000 for public community colleges. 

disregarding that the implication here is that slimfast and other diet plans are not “loving your body” (despite the fact that the choice to diet might stem from the desire to feel healthy), i don’t know much about the slimfast diet but a "thirty day supply" is $75 from walmart, so roughly (rounded up) about $950 for the year. I could find plane tickets “to europe” (i chose london) from where i live for under that, but it was $783 one-way and one ticket, and since it says “tickets,” plural… once you take someone with you, that’s $1566. And i’m guessing you want to come home once you’re there…. but again, i’m not familiar with slimfast and i don’t know much about planes, so i’ll admit this might be wrong.

for the tanning versus massage, in this particular case, both sides have the potential to be unhealthy, so do your research before you get involved in either. tanning and over-tanning can cause some ill effects, but so can an untrained masseuse (which is pretty rare, i’ll give you that!!). stay safe out there little ones, i love you :)

the “you can get highlights or food” comparison isn’t really fair because if someone was like “you can buy that nice leather jacket for yourself or you can have like a lot of tacos,” i’d be like “): okay i’ll get the tacos.” i also seriously question this, so i … did the math… (i have so much work to do, can you tell?) i’m just working with the lowest number i found in both situations because it obviously depends on where you go. highlights start at $75, whereas on what the USDA calls a “thrifty plan,” (even less spent than their “low cost plan”) each week of groceries is about $38 for young adults living alone. two weeks therefore is actually fairly close to $75, but again, the “thrifty plan” here is what’s driving that number down - and also the fact it’s only groceries for one person.

"uncomfortable shoes" is so ridiculous literally anything can make shoes uncomfortable i have $1 flipflops i bought for taking a shower at camp and they’re like a size too big and awkward to wear. i’m assuming they’re trying to make high heels sound like the devil, so let’s work backwards on this one. gas at $4 a gallon (ouch) and a car that gets 30 miles to the gallon, that’s $160. i literally don’t know what to do for this because, again, anything can make shoes uncomfortable. the most uncomfortable shoes i have ever worn are pointe shoes, $55, but for high heels?? man oh man i found heels for like??? under $20. seriously, basically every department store has them. i don’t particularly like these for myself, but i guess some sizes and colors are for under $5 before shipping. 

idk about you but when a pair of jeans fits just right that shit is better than lift tickets because it does the lifting all day long your butt becomes a booty and you know the difference. ski lift tickets? $85 each.  designer jeans that support your butt like your own personal booty aide squadron? priceless. obviously depends on the designer but i found juicy couture jeans for $53 in like a 5-second search, so.

acrylic nails, on average? around $37. ”an amusement park”? that’s pretty vague but just for laughs, the cost of a single adult ticket for one day to disney world (only one kingdom, no other expenses) is $94.

i really hate this next one because i need a bra man not only is it socially unacceptable for people with breasts to be without one (which is dumb), but i’m just generally uncomfortable without one because of personal reasons. so what if i wanna get one that makes me look like a bombshell instead of a dinky little wireless one that couldn’t hold up a flowerpetal?? but since you’re up in my business about my underwear choices, I’ve actually found several “breast-enhancing” bras at Marshalls for under $5 in the sale rack. renting a canoe ?? $48. ps??? even if i didn’t want to be thrifty and i wanted a pushup bra from a legit place? Aerie has them for under $30.

i know nothing about magazines in general because i think they can often promote the wrong idea about beauty although (again), i haven’t really looked at them recently and could have outdated information. tried to do some research for the sake of science, only found the number $20 for a subscription to vogue, although i am not sure if that’s per magazine or per year. again, i know nothing. if you’re into fashion, be into fashion, man. don’t let someone tell you that’s vain. i only don’t like it because (as far as i’ve been told) it only really represents one type of body, and i think that can be harmful. i am sosososo for fashion though. “raquel where do i get a nice dinner??” well my favorite place is here in NJ, where the average entree is about $25. totally worth that $25, but very pricey nonetheless. 

"another tube of lipstick" yeah because i like to look good in all seasons are you telling me every time i buy something i have to be like "oh ): i could have… called… a friend… with that $1 i spent on the on-sale lipstick from CVS." this is bunk you can long-distance call for free if you use the internet and skype with someone. buy that lipstick and wear it when you videochat with them. they’ll be like “damn you look good where can i get some.”

the way people love their body is different for everyone. stop shaming those who choose to love their body in a way that is conventionally “selfish” (by the way?? believe it or not, there are worse ways people spend money). who fucking cares if they like to spend their money on the stuff they do? that’s why it’s loving yourself. bc i don’t like myself very much so every time i’m like “i have to buy this or i will not have a dress for this event" i spend like 2553 years agonizing over it — and it’s because of things like this that make personal choices seem "selfish" or "vain."

eyy man love your body. buy that lipstick. don’t feel bad for the stuff that’s supposed to be for the stereotype of stuck-up lady. nah man, all this stuff? this stuff doesn’t determine who you are or how much you should love yourself. if you love your body by eating 343234 slices of cake, good (me too). if you love your body by getting “uncomfortable shoes” (more like “excellent soul-crushingly pretty” shoes), good. there!!! is!!! no!!! wrong !!! way!!! to love your body!!! regardless of how you express that!!! regardless of your gender!!!!! regardless of how “selfish” people tell you it is!!!! if you’re a girl and you like fashion!!!! teach me how to wear clothes because i bow to your greatness don’t let anyone tell you that’s a pointless hobby!!!! if you’re a dude and you like lipstick!!! put on that lipstick now you are a dude with great lipstick!!!!! if you’re a person who likes everything on this list do everything on this list and stop!!! feeling!!! bad!!! about it!!!!!

idk man idk finals are a hard time for me what do i know

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grumpys:

i hate when you’re not in the same mood as your friend like when you want to slay your enemies and feast on their flesh and your friend wants to dance in a field of daisies and sing for the sake of singing like no stop that grab a pitchfork

sicklysatisfied:

empty. on We Heart Ithttp://weheartit.com/entry/111850913/via/revovery_steph

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" She wants to write. God, she wants to write so bad. But the ink bubbles in her throat and leaks from her pores and swirls down the drain in little black puddles. She tries. Oh god, she tries. But the pen twists and grins in her sweaty grip until all that remains are smudges and streaks and tears and fears, and she steps back and stares at this thing she just made. It has not a single word, but bears her heartbeat just the same.


- (via orlansky)
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pikarar:

When you suck at something you’re supposed to be good at
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queenchrissycumberbatch:

my friendship comes in 3 levels:

1) sass 

2) insults

3) inappropriate sexual humor.